i was being my usual creeper self and stalking one such hot guy who linked up to his instagram which in turn was linked up to his facebook. now i don't know if i'm the only person to whom this has happened, but following this guy turned into a rabbit hole of checking out countless more hot, hard-bodied gay men whose cocks i would have in my mouth in an instant if i could.
this brought up a few points to me: 1. why is it that hot guys are always friends with other hot guys but 2. after looking through this initial guy's pictures, i deduced that he was in a relationship with a guy not unlike myself. they had several cute pictures together doing various couple-type things and on quite a few vacations. and this guy, whom i was clearly diligently digitally stalking at this point, was definitely my type in every way.
which led me to wonder, why the heck was i not the boyfriend he was posing with in selfies? knowing nothing about this guy other than i would love to jump in bed with him, i still felt a strange mix of envy and anxiety and sadness. here was this hot guy with his hot boyfriend living what looks to be a fabulous life. and both of whom could be my peers as far as age, and here i am at home being a slob in front of the tv watching amy poehler and tina fey on the golden globes drooling over these guys i'll never meet. good lord what a sad existence!
maybe these are emotions single people usually feel when they have time to think and fester and be lonely, but honestly i'm usually so busy i'm not thinking about that. but at the end of the day, i am pretty domestic and despite my previous high-slutting ways, i'd love nothing more than to settle down with one man and make him happy.
the interesting thing about having this blog is getting to realize there are a whole bunch of normal guys out there who happen to like guys too. but lacking venues to really meet similar men in real life, we resort to these online sites and apps where each guy is a disposable trading card to the next. real chemistry though, much harder to find.
crème de la crème . the best always sticks with the best. That's how our gay community works. I am too feeling envious and jealous of these hot guys having a smoking hot boyfriend who can spend the rest of life with. Don't worry, man. Good thing comes when you least expect it. Maybe you should learn to love yourself before you can love someone else. Just my 2 cents.
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i'm right there with you man - it sucks. hah
ReplyDeleteA keen observation, and apropos.
ReplyDeleteWhat I hate is when I look at those apps and (briefly) read whatever blurb they wrote about themselves, it's always like, "Chill, love conversation first, open to meet people and make friends" but when you message them, they never reply. That's like a shiv to the heart, haha.
Whatever, I never expected to find a sustainable relationship on there anyway.
When you dwell on the negatives, you tend to feel/think everyone out there must be doing better than yourself when in reality some are doing better and some are doing worse.
ReplyDeleteYou are young, you have time to still meet a great guy but with your crazy resident schedule, it's very tough to nurture a relationship right now.
Just be patient and wait for things to settle down and stabilize, then you can devote the proper time and attention to finding someone you really like and enjoy.