hello my loyal readers! (yea right lol) this post is to let yall know i will be out of the country on vacation the next few weeks so i will not be updating for awhile now. but never fear, i will return one day with a blogging vengeance. take care til then and happy easter!

it's back!

ok, not that it was ever really gone; the blog author had just changed the name to get rid of a few creepers (like me). anyway, if you haven't already, check it out this guy is really funny.

http://behindthisbeard.tumblr.com

side note: yesterday was 4/20 and i only saw 1 comment related to smoking pot on my fb newsfeed. is this a sign me and all my (fb) friends are getting old???!

real real world

In my endless channel surfing recently (I've been watching a lot of TV lately lol) I caught some of the current Real World, set in Las Vegas this season. It was the typical sloppy drama-filled early 20s bullshit (which I do enjoy...back in college the only two channels we watched in my apartment were ESPN and MTV), and I guess one roommate was leaving for some reason. So as the rest of the roommates were wondering who would be their new replacement roommate, they got in a conversation about having a gay person as a roommate. Then the two alpha males of the house went on a bit of a homophobic rant, talking about how they'd feel uncomfortable around a gay dude, wouldn't want to go out to a gay club but not want to be perceived as being intolerant, not wanna have their shirt off around him, etc etc. Even the girls chimed in about not believing that bisexual people can exist.

I haven't had a chance to write about why I haven't been so keen to let the world at large know I suck cock, but attitudes like that are just part of the reason. I kind of just rolled my eyes at the whole conversation, especially since one of the guys with this homophobia was the former fratpad guy. Not sure if at this point of the season he's revealed his former career, but come on what a load of bullshit. It's just amazing to me that these misperceptions are so pervasive. Even guys in my circle of friends have said similar things. It has always been a weird concept to me that certain straight men are so paranoid around gay men, thinking that at any moment they will be assaulted with a blowjob, when I doubt they are so attractive that women instantly flock to them at a bar. In fact, among my friends who have voiced this paranoia, I am quite certain how woefully lacking their own sex life is.

I guess what really bothers me is that there has to be that distinction of sexuality at all. I would say 95% of the men I've been with are just typical guys, and then maybe a handful might have been the more stereotypical "flamboyant" types. Regardless, there seems to be this idea that gay men don't understand normal social boundaries and only view straight men as sexual prey or something. I don't know if it just happens to be an American thing, but I hate how hung up people get on sexuality and how it becomes such a defining characteristic.

And yes, I understand that the whole issue with gay rights and social acceptance is that the regular joe men who could represent how very normal gay men are, are the ones who refuse to come out of the closet, thus allowing these misperceptions and stereotypes to persist blah blah blah. If only it were that easy.

Speaking of which, in my blog cruising I came across this post a few weeks ago. LINK Interesting background and story, definitely some food for thought. Maybe it is that easy...

24/7

in honor of the NHL playoffs that just started, i thought i would plug the HBO 24/7 series "road to the winter classic". it's a 4-part in-depth documentary that follows the washington caps and the pittsburgh penguins the month leading up to this year's winter classic. i am completely not a hockey fan, but my friend made me watch the first episode and it is just so well-done that i was hooked and came out of it actually liking/appreciating hockey. getting down and seeing all the nitty-gritty details the hockey players go through was incredibly fascinating and gave the game a whole new dimension that even i as a non-fan could appreciate. i didn't even know what the fucking winter classic was before i watched this documentary!

so coincidentally i caught the end of the caps-rangers game tonight on tv and it reminded me of the series. sadly it has done little to pique my actual interest in hockey as this was probably the first hockey game i've spent more than 5 minutes watching all season. pretty exciting game though, caps won in overtime. but anyway, if you're at all interested in team sports you should check out this series. plus as a bonus there are a few good-looking chaps there playing hockey...i am too embarrassed to name my favorite guy between the caps-pens but i will say he is on the caps. (and no it's not ovechkin)

not that i would ever do such an unprofessional thing, but man sometimes i would just love to pull a hot nurse or doc into a hospital supply closet or empty patient room for a quickie. isn't that the stuff porn fantasy is made of? don't think losing my job if i got caught would be quite worth it, but one can always imagine how f-cking hot that would be. as someone once told me, the lower you are on the totem pole, the easier you are to replace, so maybe i'll fulfill my fantasy when i'm an attending some day.....and then get sued for sexual harassment or some BS like that!

"i swear it was consensual!"

damn, i've really been slacking on updating. funny thing is i always have random thoughts i'd love to write about, but i never have the time to sit down and formally write them out. such is life right.....especially for me the habitual procrastinator. i'll get a real update up soon!